Random thoughts on colors and beauty.

This is actually all a procrastination tool because I don't want to go to bed or do a civics study guide. But I think I actually have something that could be of interest. I don't want this blog just to be a mundane record of what I did today, weather, and activities of siblings.

I'm a sucker for color, a zombie, an addict of color. Purple is of course my favorite but I do love all colors. And it's not just "I like that color" or "I'd buy an accesory that color". It's a staring kind of love. That's why I want all my accesories, decor, and clothes to be purple, blue, metallic, or shiny. I want to look at it, sook it in, delight in it.

For instance, today at Walmart we ended up in the beauty aisle looking for nail polish remover. And of course, next to the nail polish remover is nail polish. I saw a shade of red that I thougth Ethan would like so I painted one nail that color. It's a deep but bright, metallic ruby color. (BTW, Ethan did like it. Therefore the color has been filed for future refernce. He probably won't be wearing nail polish anytime soon, but now I have an idea the next time I need to draw or make him something.) I can't stop looking at it. Everytime my hand passes my line of vision I end up looking at it instead of what my hand is doing, which is sometimes disastrous. ;)

Red is not even one of my top three favorite colors, but all colors (With some exceptions of greens the color of baby-poop, large objects painted banana yellow, etc..) are worth just staring at. And then you should see it in a deep shade, next a light shade, then in metallic, glitter, and creamy shades. It's still the same color but with a different glint and texture and then you should stop and appreciate it all over again. Next, is the effect of sunlight on a color. I prefer all colors in the sunlight but since my eyes are so sensitive to brightness I can't look at some for very long. So then I get to appreciate the colors all over again through my puprle tinted sunglasses.

One of the best things to just stare at are our tie-dye shirts. I love how each color looks, how the colors look next to eachother, how they blend, and how they swirl. I loved how they looked when they were first dyed, but I love how they've faded to a different kind of beautiful color.

Purple is in a class of its own. There's nothing more satisfaying (sp?) than a dark or deep or bright shade of purple. I don't know why my brain is wired this way but I can't even describe how wonderful purple is to me.

Then there are the 'mundane' color things that it seems like I get to rediscover once or twice every month. Green grass, sunlight through green leaves, the reflecting colors in water. Red cardinals, grey egrets. BTW, grey is an unappreciated color. Yellow roses, white clover, pink gladiolas. I wish I was a little lady bug who could just crawl into one of them and just live in those gorgeous living colors.

I really miss the colors of the sky though. C.S. Lewis liked to think of this world as a shadow of heaven. Well, the Tulsa skies are just a shadow of the true beauty of Texas Panhandle skies. There's no blue prettier than a sky with no humidity or clouds. I won't even try to describe the sunsets to you. They're so beautiful that you feel like you should run a marathon or yell at the top of your lungs and that if you looked West long and hard enough that the sheer energy and beauty of it would make you sprout wings and then you could fly in those colors for forever. Or sometimes they're so majestic that it feels like you're Moses getting to see the back of God. The presence of God is just as real as the wind on your face and you sit there real quiet and perfectly brimful with joy.

I like to imagine that my mansion in heaven will look East on a Texas prairie. And that whenever I feel like it I can fall asleep just to have a sunrise come through my window and wake me up. And whenever I feel like it, because there won't really be any time, I'll go sit on my big, back porch. Maybe just me and God, maybe with some of my precious, wonderful friends, and we'll watch a sunset. And I'll really be able to just fly into it and drink in those colors.